Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Tomorrow, When You Are Young

I looked at you and I saw it, that spark with which you used to decorate the silly little things in life. I saw it. I saw it because I wanted to see it not because it was there. I saw it because you wanted me to see it. And then I asked you what it is you really wanted because I honestly couldn't figure it out. You smiled, pushing the tiny freckles on your cheeks closer together, then whispered "I don't know".

But you knew. Of course you knew. You knew how much I hate those three tiny words put together, in a rush, without any sort of meaning whatsoever. And it's not only that, it's that you didn't have the decency to follow them by any of the sheer volume of words that exist in the English dictionary. Because if you think about it, when they asked Einstein why the apple fell from the tree, when they asked Galileo why the earth revolves around the sun, neither one of them said "I don't know". They used a dictionary and came up with a much better explanation. It's all good though. I get it, or at least I'm trying to. You're no Einstein and you're no Galileo. You're just someone who's still trying to figure it out.

And you should do that. Because truth of the matter is, figuring things out is not easy, or as easy as kids your age make it out to be. It's a process, and like most processes, it takes time. But then again, time is relative, and no matter how much you try to get a hold of it, sometimes you just can't, which is, incidentally, another word I despise. Still, I understand that there are moments in life where "can't" and "I don't know" make more sense than any other lie you try to make yourself swallow. Which is why you should know this. I lied when I said I couldn't give you an answer to that question you so desperately wanted an answer for.

I knew the answer. I just didn't know if you were ready for it. But now, now I think you are. "Tomorrow, when you are young."

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Because You're You

There's something about you that inspires me,
much like the sun at night caressing the sea.
There's something about you that makes me want to be better;
a pirate sailing the oceans no matter the weather.

Because you are the person I always look up to,
when I'm lost, wandering, without a clue.
You are my picture perfect reflection,
standing by close at each intersection.

And I honestly don't know how you do it,
without ever really saying "I quit". (Although I guess I do.)
Because I see it everyday behind those eyes;
courage, hope, strength, someone who tries.

And yes, while I do know that we sometimes fight,
and most of the time you're the one who's right,
I also know that you are a hero, the real one,
the one who's always there when all is said and done.

So with that in mind, let me tell you this,
so that after I can give you a kiss.
I admire you,
I respect you,
and I love you.

I love you because you believe in my dream,
even though sometimes it makes you want to scream.

I love you because you taught me how to be strong
when everything around me seems to be going wrong.

I love you because you appreciate the little things,
not the lives of the rich, the queens, and the kings.

I love you for a million more reasons, but most of all,
I love you because you're you.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

The Existential Crisis

Every now and then we all have one. It's an inevitable rite of passage, like puberty, but without the emotional turmoil of having to wait for your sex organs to grow. It's also a mouse trap, with cheese imported from a small village in Switzerland as bait. It's Pandora, opening up her box and unleashing a plethora of questions that start with who, what, when, where, why and how. It's a lot of things actually but what it really is is an existential crisis.

One in which everything changes as time stands still. One in which knowing means nothing and not knowing is worse. One in which synapses short circuit, brain spins out of control, and the central nervous system starts to second guess itself, and just like that, everything you once thought you knew is replaced by trivia you had forgotten to think about. Such as.

God is an illusion who lives inside a magician's overactive imagination from which he then goes and pulls a white rabbit out of the hat. Death is a game of dominoes, but with twenty eight blank tiles, and sooner or later we are all expected to play yet neither one of us knows how. People die, bodies decompose, and we are never to hear from them again, and if we do, well, if we do, something's not quite right. Life on other planets could be the equivalent to death on this one. Success is not about how many certificates you've got hanging on your wall but about how you feel on the inside after you've hung them. Having a strong career doesn't mean anything unless it gives you something worth waking up for in the morning.

Humans cannot fly but children almost certainly can. Earth is not flat but in another world it could be. Life is an unfinished sentence because she who was writing it didn't think it –